Day # 70!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had a fiber tortilla with scrambled eggs, salsa and ketchup...BOMB!

Lunch: I have two thin sliced whole wheat pieces of bread with spicy mustard and turkey! Only 3 pts!

Not sure about dinner yet, but I think we're going out so I'll have to plan wisley...which I hate doing! I have 20 weeklies left and my daily, so I should be just fine.

Sorry to write so quickly....I have two days left of work before my big 5 year anniversary vacation trip to RENO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAHOO!!!! We leave next Monday, so my week starts FRESH!!! :)

Day # 68 & #69 Rain Rain Go Away!

My Tuesday was good....

I had my normal 3 point breakfast and a nice big salad for lunch. I Had an apple and a 90 calorie bar for a snack. I skipped dinner! My girlfriend and I went out to have drinks, so I skipped dinner to make up for the points...aye aye aye! It was a lot of fun, but I'm paying for it today... :(

I had my usual 3 point breakfast again and am going to go to the store to get this super WARM caesar sandwhich! I'm calculating 10 points for it, which I know is more than what it is, but just to be on the safe side I'd rather over estimate.

Dinner is going to be two fiber tortillas and a taco! I Have just enough poitns left.... :)


Have a great day everyone!!!

Day #67 Still......

I had a GREAT day of eating!!! I am so proud of myself.

Breakfast: Fried egg with two thin slices of whole wheat, salsa and spray butter
Snack: Strawberries and black berries
Lunch: 1 cup of progresso chicken noodle soup and a chicken breast
Dinner: two fried toastadas with beans, tomatoes, salsa and light sour cream. I also had 2 we gram fiber each wheat tortillas....I was HUNGRY! I'm stuffed.

5 points left for the day! I have skinny cows or fiber one cereal with ff milk...not sure which road I'm headed down yet...

Also, I road my stationary bike for 20 minutes! I was feeling the sweat, but only burned about 120 calories. :-)

Oh, happy day! On my way! Still 200lbs, but I am going to lose next week! I am on a mission and have two months to lose a little weight and keep it GOING!

Day #64-#67 BEAUTIFUL WEATHER!

What a gorgeous weekend. I can't get over how warm it was!

Friday: We went to an AWESOME Giants game!! It was really great weather taking the ferry over and wasn't too cold that night! We didn't get a snuggie, but that's okay! We had our Giants apparel on and had a great time anyway.

Saturday: We enjoyed a beautiful day at home in the morning and then made a trip over to Fairfield for Costco! That was a blast. Tj had to buy some stuff for his golf tournament that's going on this weekend. We went over t my friends house and hung outside and drank margarita's. It was very relaxing...we got home by 11:30, so it wasn't a late night.

Sunday: I layed out in the sun all day! I cleaned and cleaned and played with the pup outside for a while. It was another relaxing weekend....

Today is officially 2 months until i have to sqeeze into a bright red dress! I'm nervous and I haven't picked it up yet, so I have no idea if it will even fit now. She got me one size smaller, so I'm hoping it will fit! 16-18 is the size and last time she had to order me a sizze 20 and I'm the same size as last August... :(

Happy day everyone...

Day #60-#63 Happy Earth Day!!!!

It's been a rough week. Monday and Tuesday were okay, but yesterday was a disaster. I met with my friend to tell her about her husband cheating on her with my best friend, five years ago. She had found out from my friend and needed to get reasurrance. I feel awful, but what was I to do? I couldn't break a relationship like that or a marriage. Plus, 5 years ago I didn't know her or him. It's just a totally f'ed situation!!!! I've been a stress ball, crying mess and emotionally distraut for the last 3 weeks. What a road to hit!

It's Thursday and it's Earth Day! I wish I could have walked to work, but my drive is 45 minutes! lol- that would have taken me forever!

I'm hoping for a loss next Monday, but wouldn't be suprised if I stayed the same or even gained some. I've been an emotional MESS!!!!

Day #59 - Weigh In Change

OK, I think I'm going to change my WI day's to Mondays. I always feel like Monday's are a fresh start, so I'm hoping that will help me get through the week easier!

I'm 200lbs....:(

Today's Menu:

Breakfast: Fried Egg with whole wheat toast and spray butter = 3
Lunch: Fat free thousand island dressing, bacos, tomatoes, romaine lettuce and croutons = 4

Snack: Carrots = 0 (Didn't have very many)
Coffee: Fat free mocha = 3

Dinner: BBQ Boneless chicken breast, baked potato, sour cream/salsa, boiled veggies = 10

Dessert: Fiber 1 cereal, chopped banana, sliced strawberries and fat free milk = 6

Over 1 point...

Today was a pretty good day and tomorrow will be better!

:-)

Day #55-#58 (Weigh In)

Wow! I feel like it's been weeks since I"ve been able to write. Here's a breakdown of the last week I've had!

Thursday: Bad weigh in day. I'm 200lbs. I never thought I could disappoint myself so much in my life and I did. 200lbs. Really? Why and how could I do this to myself! Moving on...

Friday: This was a really busy day at work. I mean, busy! Good news though...we finally got our tax refund back! It took a while, because we had some missing information when we filed, but we finally got it! Our first time home buyer credit was granted to us and we had about a thousand in write offs. Afterwards, we went and celebrated with some friends which was really nice and we were home by 11:30pm and I was pooped.

Saturday. Very exciting day! It was my first trip ever to IKEA! Never had I ever gone before and I loved it. I had a mental breakdown though, when we got to the mirrors. Just looking at myself in the mirrors made me feel so disgusted. I was sickened at what I was looking at! My friends are supportive and always tell me how I'm beautiful on the inside out, but I just don't feel it. Saturday night, we went over to a friends house for a BBQ for his birthday. Surprisingly, all I had was a little breakfast, a few nibbles on some Chinese chow mien and a few bites of some appetizers. I just wasn't feeling hungry after looking at myself and feeling so fat for the last few days. It's been overwhelming, this feeling. I can't sleep and when I do sleep, I wake up unrested. Totally sucks!

Sunday: I stayed home and enjoyed such beautiful weather. It was amazingly gorgeous outside. I took all of my IKEA finds and decorated the house, cleaned and layed outside for a bit. We're trying to rip out some tile in our downstairs bathroom, so I got a little workout when I was hammering the crap out of the walls! It felt great and my hands/arms were shaking afterwards!

I'm looking forward to tomorrow, because I'm going to hit the track with some friends. I'm not going to worry about running the whole time, or even part of the time, because it's not worth it. I'll do what I can DO and I can't let other people judge me or think they're judging me. I over analyze everything and need to stop. So, THERE! :-)

My friend is progressing with this whole divorce thing...but it's still really sad. she and I had a meltdown on the way home on Saturday night, when it was just the two of us, so I know she's still hurting so badly inside. Ugh- Totally sucks that I can't take this pain away from her.

Hope all of you are doing well.....

Day #53 & #54 - Feeling Better!

Well, things are better over here! My friend is starting to get more pissed about this whole divorce situation, so she's progressing!

Tuesday was a crazy day at work. Totally nuts! My food has been pretty good this week, but definitely not what it should be. I'm nervous about this WI, but am going to take it as it is. I went for a 1.5 mile walk yesterday with a friend of mine at the track. Boy, that felt good. Even though we were chatting and sweating only a little, it was nice to get OUT and do something productive with myself! Afterwards, we went to checkers for dinner for Tj's moms birthday. I got a vegetarian calzone and only ate 1/4 of it! I packed 1/2 of the rest of it for lunch today and Tj and I split it. I made some 99% fat free popcorn for a snack and a breakfast burrito with a fat free tortilla. Already on my 3rd bottle of water, so wer'e good there too!

Hope you're all doing well.....